Now you’re just somebody that I used to know.

Hey You.

You’ve been on my mind all day and I honestly don’t know how that makes me feel. I mean I haven’t thought about you in a while… so what does this mean?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhnRlEmuUno

It’s almost Over.

Only 10 more days and I am DONE with High School :) I am so ready but going to miss alot of people in my Senior Class and I honestly never thought I would… I’ve just had so much happen over the years with immature, jealous girls that I thought I would be ready to leave but in reality I am going to miss all the KRAZIE guys in my grade and after our Senior Picnic I think I’ll be missed too… I can’t wait to come back in 10 years for our class reunion and see how everyone is doing :)

Fuck you, You fucking Prick.

Some friend you fucking are. Seriously? You don’t call one of your best friends those names no matter what is going on. All I know is our friendship is OVER. You have made your fucking bed and I hope your happy that you have made me an enemy. If you really cared about me the way you say you do then you wouldn’t of gone that far. You showed me your true colors today and I am done for good with all of this. I hope your happy. I just can’t do this shit anymore. I just don’t understand how anyone can sit there and act like they know what is going on in your life when they don’t even have all the facts. I just seriously want to beat your damn ass. I haven’t been this angry in a long time but seriously have me wanting to kill you. I might be a “Brainwashed idiot, easy slut, sex slave, snobby brat” but what does that make you? I was in love whether you want to believe it or not. Just go fuck yourself. No we didn’t just have sex all these years; we dated, we went out, watched movies, cuddled, kissed and made plans, had a miscarriage and much more but oh no I was just some dumb easy slut, right? FUCK YOU! We have been friends for five years and now I could care less if I have see you again you prick. I never did anything but try to help you but you had to sit there and try make me feel useless? Well go fuck yourself. You don’t know me and you don’t know him. All you have ever done was hate him so what do you really know? Nothing that is what. God seriously how can you just sit there and act like you know? You had a pity party when Jessica broke your heart and turned to drugs. So who is the pathetic one? You. I never turned to drugs or anything to heal my broken heart. His mother didn’t want us together and told me she would never allow me to be with him or her family. Has Jessica’s parents done that to you? Have they sat there and told you they will have her put in jail or get her in trouble if you try to be with her? I think not. So how would you even know what we have been through? You don’t so stop acting like you know everything. He told me when he had to hang-out with that fat whore Ashton just like Jessica told you how she was going to spend time with her Ex’s mom. But did I make him feel horrible about it? No. Was I happy about it? Hell no. But I still respected that he respected me enough to not let me find out by facebook or by someone else. Which is what Jessica did. She loves you but your bond and determined to push her away because you are afraid of getting hurt again so you try and hurt me well guess what I don’t give a fuck. I know in my heart what I had was more than Sex and I don’t care what anyone tries to say about it. Every relationship is different and trying to compare ours with y’alls is beyond childish if you want to call someone childish. Not everyone is a whore like Amanda so get over yourself. Yes I am being a bitch and immature right now but you have me so pissed that I can’t even think straight you fucking ass hole and talk some more shit about Aaron and I swear I will light you ass on fucking fire. You don’t know him. You know what you have heard and not all that bull shit is true. Has he cheated? Yes. Has he made mistakes? Yes. But never once did he make me feel the way you make Jessica feel so don’t you dare. I might not be with him anymore or friends but I won’t tolerate you talking shit when you know nothing. Get your fucking facts straight and put you damn big boy panties on. Suck it up.  Our friendship is OVER and I hope you’re happy. You did this to yourself, Shane and you’re about to find out what it is like to be on my shit list and trust me you won’t like it. I hope you enjoy your life you, Prick.

Let’s be honest here.

I have been very honest lately and hurtful at the same time so why not give it another round. I am not going to be jealous if you with my Ex. Plain and simple because he is my Ex. There is a reason for that and if I am meant to end up with him then that is going to happen. Now will I say some stuff when people bring up subjects? Yes. But all I am going to say is stuff like, “Ha. It wont last I know how he is.” or “It is sad how immature he has become since he has gotten with her.” But that is mainly off of what people have pointed out to me. So sue me. My opinion will never change. If something is meant to be then there is nothing anyone can really do about that. So I say sit back and enjoy the ride and expect everything that happens.

Fuck This Shit.

I seriously feel like this relationship is going to be the death of me. I don’t see how come we can be fine one day and the next everything is falling apart. Isn’t really  that bad if we get along everyday like we were? What are you afraid of? Just hoping that the rest of this school year flies by so we don’t have to see each other ever again. Cause I don’t what I am going to do. All I know is I want to go to sleep and never wake-up after today.